Am I still doing the right thing? Am I still in control here?
I have a feeling that I have created a monster in my boyfriend. He has become dependent on me for a lot of things: I bail him out financially, I help him with the radio ads, I write his scripts, I did his resume… In fact, the only thing I haven’t done is to be his sex slave! Am I still doing the right thing here?
When we first started out, I only wanted to be a positive force in his life, to be some sort of inspiration for him, so that he will do something to make his life better. But I dunno if I ever succeeded in that. Sure, he is taking steps towards a better life by applying for another job but when will the abuse end? Will I have to bail him out several times in a week? Why cant I say no to him?
Maybe I need to distance myself from him. This is no longer healthy. I may have created a monster and now its terrorizing me.
